A shy kid living an extraordinary life

I was an extremely shy individual and this affliction affected every aspect of my life. There were so many events and/or circumstances that are usually taken for granted in one’s childhood that I completely missed out on.

Actual fear raced through my body during group activities and games while in grade school severely restricting my participation. In the classroom I always dreaded being called upon and I was incapable of participating in group activities, especially when girls were involved. I recall the feeling of loneliness when the other kids were claiming boyfriends and girlfriends and I could only look on. I so much wanted to participate and secretly had girlfriends but only I knew of them.

As I grew older and entered high school, the affliction became magnified. I recall writing notes and placing them in my pockets in anticipation of using them so as to enable my carrying on a conversation with a member of the opposite sex. It never worked!